KarMel
Scholarship 2007
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“My By Anonymous |
Desciption of Submission: Poem about my struggle with my
bisexuality
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Confused, torn, twisted My emotions pulling me in
directions I never knew existed Does my heart yearn for
Jack Or is it possible that it
aches for both the same My eyes wander up and down The feminine and the male My mind’s eye excites with
visions Too delectable to explain
in detail But wait! Stop! This can’t
be right! My brain shouts right out
loud Society says it’s a
boy-girl thing That’s the only way
allowed A girl-girl thing can
never work So you might as well settle
down With a man that will
protect you And will make your family
proud My body can’t help but
reject this thinking This forced way of being Perhaps I should rebel And make it only girls I’m
seeing In this way I find many
friends Women who support me
without fail Until I cannot suppress
these feelings Feelings I still have for
the male My friends say I’m a
traitor That I can’t make up my
mind They say I’m just selfish That the best of both
worlds are mine All these swirling
accusations Cut me to the core Until I don’t think I can
take it anymore I can’t turn to my family Who knows what they would
say I couldn’t stand losing
their love So I play the straight in
their way I wish I could explain to
them all How I feel each day It’s like a present I open To find out what’s inside Will it be a woman Or will it be a guy So this battle I will
continue Fight with it every day Until I make my final
choice A partner either way When I finally settle down In peace I hope to be With the person I know in
my heart Truly completes and
belongs with me |