KarMel Scholarship 2004
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Best Transgender “This is Me” By
Julie Davenport, OH |
Desciption of Submission: “A
Transgender logns to be who they feel they are.” – Julie
Why Karen and Melody Liked It: It really showed how a trasgender person sees themselves.
I stare into the mirror as I hover over the sink in
the bathroom that is connected to my bedroom.
I see a girl with cream
lipstick and mascara staring back at me. She has curly, brown hair that is down
to her shoulders and beautiful hazel eyes. Not just any hazel eyes, mind you.
They are a kind of hazel that is not only a brown and green mix, but with specks
of yellow as well; reminding me of sunbeams.
I turn around to look at
myself in the full-length mirror.
I see my stature of
5’10” supporting the glorious curves of my breasts and hips. I study the way my
cheap Goodwill shirt lies on my breasts and the way my boxers hug my thighs.
I bend down and run my
hands along my smooth legs. I straighten up and run my fingers through my
perfectly curly hair.
This is me.
My mother calls my name
from downstairs, interrupting my thought and snaps me back into reality.
I glance into the mirror
and a boy is now staring back at me. A regular boy with
regular brown hair and regular brown eyes. I see neither makeup nor any
curves that need the support of my 5’10” semi-muscular, stature.
“
My mothers’ piercing
voice travels up the stairs, down the hall, through my bedroom, into the
bathroom and into my ears once again.
“I’m coming!” I reply as
I violently switch the light off and begin to walk downstairs, wondering why I
just cannot be who I feel I am.